Have you ever had a rival? In my 20s, I had one. In my mind, I was constantly competing with her to dress better, look better, succeed more. And constantly wondering if I was falling short. I had a revelation in my 30s. She was never my rival. The competition was an illusion. I was using her as an actor, an antagonist, a character for the negative dialogue I had streaming 24/7 in my head. She didn’t make me feel inferior; I did it to myself. “The antagonist” was making me feel how I thought I deserved to feel. The antagonist was my own ego. (Wait, did I just describe the plot from “Fight Club”?)
Fast forward, new city, new life, but I still find myself letting my mind drift to the negative space (I am not enough). So many things in life can make someone feel unworthy. I am sure we all have our stories. It is a constant battle. I am on a mission to internalize love and compassion, and stop elevating my own self-doubt. One of my tools is “ The Four Agreements” by Don Miguel Ruiz. These agreements might seem obvious, but during difficult times, they provide simple clarity.
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Peace & Salam
Natasha
Natasha Khan Kazi is an author, illustrator, and maker. She spends a lot of time thinking about creativity, curiosity, and how we make meaning out of the world around us.
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